Hi, I’m Anca!
Here’s a brief introduction to my world!
So, it’s been a long time coming. For a few years now I’ve been thinking of starting my own blog, but not sure how to go about it, what to write about, or what people would be interested in reading.
Honestly, I’m still not sure. All I know is that I’ve been toying with these ideas for a long time and I need to get my thoughts out there.
I hope you will enjoy my ramblings, and that you can relate to what I’m going through. We all have something interesting to say, whether we’re 25, 55, or 75.
Does anyone else feel this way? You always think that there’s so much to share, yet you don’t know what to say or where to start. Well, you’re not alone!
If you ever find something here that you like and that resonates with you, please send me some feedback, I’d love to hear from you.
Talking About Myself
Before we go any further though, let me talk a little about myself, and tell you what brought me here, to this blog. I’m a middle-aged woman (I won’t give you my exact age!!!) who has been through a lot of changes and metamorphosis in this lifetime.
Although it feels like I’ve accomplished absolutely nothing in this life, I have a beautiful daughter, a grandson, a full-time job that I’ve had for more than 25 years, and my own bachelor’s degree in Sociology. Not too shabby, yet it feels like nothing special.
When my daughter was younger I worked a full-time job, going to school full time while raising a young child. Even when my daughter became a teen, I was doing even more hours than before, and I returned to school to finish my bachelor’s degree that I had started when my daughter was fairly young.
I should feel good about my accomplishments, right? So why do I sometimes feel like I haven’t reached my full potential, that I’m still struggling to find my place in the world? What is it about us women that make us feel like such failures? It seems like nothing is good enough, that we don’t measure up. Guys surely don’t feel this way. At least the guys I know pretty well. They go with the flow, if they fail at something they try again, and life goes on.
I like to believe that I’m not lacking self-esteem, yet I constantly question myself and wonder if I’m doing things right and if things make sense. Am I alone to feel this way, or is it in the female DNA to overthink? That is the type of questions and philosophical debates I like to have with (mostly) myself, but also with friends and/or family from time to time.
I’m a Gemini, and if anyone knows Geminis, they know they are very dual individuals. As a typical Gemini, I’m full of contradictions.
For example, I love to chill out and spend hours reading, but I also love the adrenaline rush of juggling multiple things at the same time. I seem to function better and be more productive when I have multiple projects going on.
Due to my dual nature, I seem to have difficulty making a decision. I can look at all sides and possibilities, analyze and overthink things, and it takes me a long time before I pick one side or the other.
Now, since I don’t have homework on top of my full-time job, just reading as a hobby doesn’t feel enough anymore. And I read a lot. On average, around 70 books per year, just a little more than a book a week. Ever since I can remember I’ve been a reader, and I always carry a book with me, no matter where I go.
My Love For Reading
How did my love of reading start? I will go into more depth in my next post, but for now, I’ll just tell you that growing up in Romania in the seventies as an only child probably had something to do with it. Keep reading to find out more.
What Should You Expect From This Blog?
Since my main hobby is reading, you will find book reviews, and sometimes To Be Read lists that are neverending, and at times ambitious. I might share recipes I’ve tried and loved, and places I visited, or I might just ramble on about random topics that come up. Sometimes there might be something interesting going on in the world that I might feel the need to address, so you will probably see a post about that.
Or sometimes I get ideas at the most inopportune time. That’s why my newest thing is that I carry a notebook with me now. Random thoughts seem to pop into my head when I least expect them. I keep notebooks pretty much everywhere: on my desk, on my nightstand, at work, in my bag. You get the picture.
Just like in life, we all get distracted by stuff that seems to come out of nowhere. Especially in the past year, which saw us going through so many changes.
Things that we used to take for granted, we now see in a different light. Or our priorities simply changed. This pandemic made us less wasteful, buying things that we need, rather than what we want. So at least there’s a silver lining.
I don’t know if you remember, but last year people were nicer to each other, we all started calling our new way of being “The New Normal”.
But a little more than a year in, I find that most people have gone back to their previous behaviors, they seem more stressed than they were before, and very impatient.
Whatever happened to the new normal? Haven’t we learned anything? Or if we did, why isn’t it sticking?
I know for myself, that I’ve always tried to become more conscious about my choices as a consumer. I try to do my part, be it as small as starting to use recyclable totes when grocery shopping. I’m far from perfect, but sometimes small steps are all we need to go in the right direction, and eventually, we all get better.
I’m going to leave this conversation at that, as I don’t want to elaborate too much in my introduction. I’m sure the opportunity to continue this conversation will present itself again, then I will discuss it in a lot more detail. Because I have many opinions about it!
For now, I’d like to thank you for taking the time to read this brief presentation, and I really hope that many of you will follow me on this journey.